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A Complicated Man [2018 Rendez Vous Records]

by A Complicated Man

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1.
I see clouds in my window, drifting in to the night I love to think I'm drifting too, I beat myself black and blue I'm used to waking up in such a mess, I just feel lonely, I confess It's just the same old things that keep me up at night, It's this life These September nights nip at my heels I'm just the same,I'm just the same old me, yeah how does it feel to drift off to sleep? Spare me all the memories, Im on my knees Buildings that keep the sky up from my head Ive been left for dead in this place I'm scared and so I'm hiding in this place, hiding my blank face, don't come around I will only let you down Theres birds surrounding my house Right by my window, evil plans are floating round their heads Maybe I'll shoot them all down, they'll just come back around I'll just let the cold winter unfold, why do we try to fight the bitter cold, when it always comes back? And we're growing old. Spare me all the memories, I'm on my knees
2.
Bangkok 03:15
I lost myself in crowds dying for your voice, some familiar sound I flew so far away from you, My heart strung out and my nails all chewed I somehow always knew that I could come back home I don’t know where I belong I always knew that I could come back home I don't know where I belong I left a message to myself, threw all my money down the wishing well and these roads that push these hills apart keep leading me further from a change of heart You always said that I could come back home I don’t know where I belong You always said that I could come back home I don’t know where I belong I’ve been thinking I should come back home I don’t know where I belong I’ve been thinking I should come back home I don’t know where I ...belong I’ve been thinking I should come back home I don’t know where I belong
3.
Always looking for pleasure but leaving myself behind,
 I feel fine, I think. 
 Everyday is another excuse to feel all washed up, 
 Im so messed up, I think Strange minds think alike, leave there posts unattended at night, and it seems we just leave it all in dreams but
 that lines been rubbed out, Im in doubt, think I'm in but I'm down and I'm out. Shadows grow and Im feeling so small I could disappear, 
 but I'm still here, I think. I think about the things that we did, it makes me smile, its a different life somehow, 
 but I could never let you go until now. 

4.
The day you were born the rain came, what else could go wrong I left all my clothes in piles, and then we just drove back home The saddest sights I've seen are stuck in this machine I looked in to eyes that had never been seen they looked at me and I stumbled and fell in my sleep I looked in to eyes that had never been seen they looked at me and I stumbled and fell in my dreams The day you were born you showed me, that nothing was wrong I took all my clothes in piles, and then we just drove back home
5.
Theres empty chairs and tables too in a room that's cloaked in dust did you see the light, it doesn't come in here it all escaped somehow Well I've been trying now I'm going back to bed just let me be but don't get mad at me A complicated man, does what he can to untie knots that he has tied inside his head Believe he does his best, it isn't much it's all he's got to keep himself from losing touch The rain still comes from time to time to check that we're alive A thousand stones fell from the sky with a thousand reasons why I've been trying now I'm going back to bed just let me be but don't get mad at me A complicated man, does what he can to untie knots that he has tied inside his head Believe he does his best, it isn't much it's all he's got to keep himself from losing touch A complicated man has complicated plans that no one understands he wastes his time in empty lines but no one's there because no one cares this time
6.
Frames 04:51
When I look I see you in frames, Im no good, Im no good with names but yours stays in my head These controls need some labels on them, digging holes and then climbing from them, help me when you’re free I found some ancient things, clearing out my old room, just before I left home I couldn’t sleep thinking of that old life, now that Im on my own Im moving on and all those ancient things feel, like they’re tying me down I went through my old books to see what I was thinking, I just think too much Theres nowhere to hide when you’ve been running for so long, It’s gone so wrong Is this it, is this everything, Theres a piece of this puzzle missing, keep things to yourself
7.
We spoke for days on machines you told me your feelings, I told you mine We still held back to keep that image in tact to keep up safe But now that I'm feeling half dead I wish I had let you inside my head I dreamed of love, and I dreamed of us in a big house in the country These fantasies I dream up they bring me no peace they bring me down But now I'm not feeling quite right I wish I had let you inside my heart So place your hands, behind this wall of doubt, and clear me out and if you trace my plans, you'll find I've lost my way I'm just a slave to machines but they've got no feelings, they've got no soul These modern things they keep creeping back in to my life they don't feel right
8.
I could scratch lines in these walls waiting for your call words that tear me up, oh so delicately put In your bed I lose myself it feels like all we do is say farewell All I needed was some faith, a smile upon your face that when we fall apart we'd still know that we were safe I've been breaking down for years You were always here I keep leaving my heart in your hands It feels like we'll never understand this love Under this weight its hard to move, every time I do theres something in the air and it leads me back to you I've been trying so hard for so long it's hard to tell where I've been going wrong I shut my eyes and drift away, memories never fade It's been so bitter sweet but there is nothing I would change I'm still sure we could work things out just maybe not right now I keep leaving my heart in your hands It seems like we'll never understand this love
9.
Light me up 03:40
I live in some kind of showroom, I can see my face in everything people watch me from distant windows here I see them at their computers doing things that I don't understand In a world so full of fake smiles How could you ever trust anyone? Theres a blue light that haunts my house but sometimes its my only company how could anyone be sad these days? light the fuse and watch the world go bang and know that I could never let it go Light me up and let me down, but don’t let me disappear Set me free when I come round, when you know that we're near, let me go gently There's a tunnel that leads to that house wading through the painful memories maybe I'm just way too sad these days light the fuse and watch the world go bang and know, that I could never let it go
10.
Bright lines 03:26
Im waiting for stars in the sky to explode and and scatter dust all over all of us before I come out of my little safe house Every night when we lie in our beds and the earth spins us around here it's been shaking too, and I think of you and what lies between us Burning that page last night I woke up your ghost, love wont keep us afloat, I'm rowing hard to keep from the edge Detonate the bomb in your head if you don’t want to think today things disappear that way, but they leave a mess that you have to deal with Was there ever a love that's so pure that you don’t have to be on guard? One thats not quite so hard, where birds sing along in blissfully broken cries Burning that page last night I woke up your ghost Love wont keep us afloat, I'm rowing hard to keep from the edge I live in this castle, no king to be seen My footsteps echo and shake, my body aches oh where have you been
11.
Undertow 04:03
I've been staring down the wishing well in this endless maze that I call myself Look around and you will see yourself do you look unwell? Do you recognise that face? I filled my head up then I fell apart trying to understand all the broken hearts Do you ever feel misunderstood? Well maybe you should in a world turned upside down I'm just hiding from the undertow dig my heels in the ground We know something they could never know Say a prayer for yourself when the world calls your name save a prayer for your loved ones I need instructions when I wash my hands when I make my plans, oh what will I do? I swear the television made me blind, so I took my time and I questioned everything It seems like everything will fall apart in a country when it goes too far I just always felt misunderstood and I knew I would in a world turned upside down
12.
Your home 03:38
Never sinks right in, but always seems to hit me hard Is it just time alone? or maybe its a broken heart in this little house I put all my things It used to be our home but you wont let me in In this nothingness I'm sure I saw road somewhere so if you fade away you just need to know I care I don't want to hear what you're tired of I wont waste your time I just want to show you love We tried hard, blood sweat and tears but I wont take away your fears I just want to be your home Lying in my bed the shadows seem to eat me whole if only we had done everything that we'd been told. Driving by your house I nearly lost my mind listening to your voice I lose my track of time We tried hard, blood sweat and tears, But I wont take away your fears I just want to be your home

about

This is my latest album, released on Rendez Vous Records.

The album was nearly finished a few years ago and then I developed a severe voice issue and it went on hold. So it's been a labour of love to get it finished and released.

All songs written and played by me apart from the help listed below.
Recorded mostly at home and mixed by me. Mastered by Mojito Mastering

Cover art from an old painting of mine

I hope you enjoy it :)

credits

released September 18, 2018

Thanks to...
Darren Clark and Shaun Crook for help recording guitars and drums
James fox for playing drums
Jack Duff for his lead guitar parts
Dan Sutherland and Abi Aland for backing vocals

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A Complicated Man England, UK

My name's Alex Delfont and you've found my pop rock indie project! I hope you enjoy it

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